So i guess the first post should be an introduction to me and what's going on at the mo.
Wife to the strangest man I've ever met and mum to spider man. 5 3/4.

I'm 31 and have spent most of my life walking in the wrong direction.
I'm a singer and songwriter, always have been .

BUT  I've always had the feeling that other people's needs were more important than mine . This led me to work in care homes - mainly with older people with mental health issues.
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This blog is intended to keep track of my progression and to keep hold of my sanity................. Hopefully

Firstly there's the degree , BA HONS Music Performance - I can't believe they let me in. It's been yrs since I've studied.
I made a few phone calls and somehow I'm there.

 I start TOMORROW !!!!!    EEEKKKKK

This is the biggest thing I've done with my life since my child was born .
To say this is a massive challenge is an understatement - I have no idea what's coming .

Maybe that's a good thing ??

Secondly is the fitness thing . I want to look better naked . Don't get me wrong , I don't hate my body but maybe there's a little to much  jiggle ?

On a good boob day i have quite a nice hourglass and feel like Beyonce ,bad day I feel like my ass is visible from space
 The idea is to get stronger and motivated for all the challenges ahead rather than to lose loads of weight .

There's a weight loss service in Hull that provides support during the process . I have a food and excersize diary

It's a six month commitment, focusing on me making smart choices everyday to work towards a bigger goal.

Its a skill set I'm going to need if I'm going to pass my degree .

Lastly I've been having therapy for depression  but this is coming to an end - I've had a few serious bouts during my life.
Since April I've had weekly sessions with an amazing woman and we feel I've said everything I need to .
Thou' it's a bit awkward when you realise you've put a lot of baggage down and you're still a few sandwiches short of a picnic .

All the talking seems to have worked as i now feel stronger more capable and more stable than I've ever been .

Handy if you intend to make major changes in life...... ahhh lightbulb

The thing is I have no idea how ambitious or ruthless this woman is !

Emillie Sande or Nikki Minaj ?

So now all i need to do now is everything I'm told to do when I'm told to do it

simple ???????