Thank yous and Tissues !!

So I normally don't do an end of yr reflective look back type thingie - usually cos I've never done anything worth shouting about.
But this year I have ... I'm proud of myself and all I've achieved but I know I couldn't have done this without help so this is more of a Oscars acceptance speech type deal !
In no particular order 
Mind on bev road for putting me in touch with the greatest councillor in the whole world. We laughed we cried and we cleared up the mess in my little head. She did this for free and as a volunteer. 
Hopefully me being successful is the best payment I can give her.
To Tarina Duffield - Miss penny feathers - I know peek a view was a long time ago. you gave me a chance to perform and introduction into Burlesque , how a show works and the art of performance. It felt like a massive step and people cheered for me ??!!! - shit a brick !!
To miss Violet Blaze - I love your ass and more importantly I almost love mine too That workshop was exactly what I needed. You show me that having curves is no barrier to taking your clothes off in front of a room full of people. 
Thou I've yet to find some big enough pasties.
You inspire me to be creative with my physical body and to be bold and confident enough to own my space.
To Miss Kiki DeVille I love your face . I love that there's places in the world that you get to do what you do. 
It gives me hope that at some point I might get to work with a big band or a jazz band on some old classic numbers in the future. 
I love there are places out there that welcome artists with that retro style.
To Kitty Beaumont.You taught me to dance and shimmy. You expected me to dance like the other girls so I worked hard to make my body do it. I desperately needed to be one of the girls and you helped me to push myself to be better.
To Andy Ferguson and Vic Collie you two are the people I've definitely complained and whined and bitched and moaned at the most. At best I'm a pain in the arse and at worst the most ridiculous human being on the planet and yet you still message me back ! 
I love you both so very much. You have both helped me be the creative person I always should have been . You two are the kindest people I know. 
You give me boundaries and tell me to sort myself out when I've needed to hear it.
And I've NEEDED to hear it !
To Craig Steer and all tutors I'm sure you've broken me. All I've thought about since we broke up is coming back and the assignments I've got to do .
So thanks for that !?
Lastly to Stephen Toynton . You have stood by me and not murdered me in my sleep as I appear to find new ways to annoy you every day. 
You are the beginning and ending of everything. I couldn't do any of it without you. 
You have grown with me and simultaneously let me grow away then back again. 
I know I'm not the easiest person but I love you very much. 
You don't yell at me too much when I haven't done the house work or forgotten to order any shopping - oopps !
The plan for new year is just more of the same. .. hard work and determination . More work on mind body and soul and more drunken nights out and embrassing fbk posts and pics.
Aren't you lucky............

The who

After !

Before !

BOO ! Did ya miss me ???

So I guess this is a catch up post . The last couple of weeks at uni had been the busiest so far.
Mixed in with the prep for Christmas it drove me to the edge of sanity !

In the last week I had 2 assignments due both with 10 min power point's and one i'd already submitted to present to our group.
As well as a group performance that was assessed and then a rehearsal for a new band .

I reacted in my usual panic mode . I had lists on top of lists so everything was done in time.
But in the end it was ......................

I GOT IT ALL IN !!

This is amazing for me - Usually I give up trying because the task is so huge but this time it's different.

There's so many thing just fit better with this new situation. I'm definitely in a better position now than this time last year.

So the gig was amazing - We worked so well as a unit !
Loads of people in the crowd congratulated me on being great. I even got loads of friend requests and inbox messages from people offering me all sorts.

Some good , some not so good. LOL
This new band opportunity came as a result of the gig. Now I'm off to rehearse with a load of 3rd years.

EEEEEEEEEKKKKK Scary cos they all know so much more about everything than i do - I know I'm good at what I do but it's all a very steep learning curve.

Also this means more time away from the home - we rehearse on a night once a fortnight so I miss putting spiderman to bed that night. It's not a huge thing but as a mum you always worry about spending time away from them.

The diet is going ok i think - with all the stress I've been dealing with the eating has been a little - ahem - erratic !  

I've still been hitting the gym to balance it out.

Then it was Christmas - I cooked, I ate, I drank .

Then I felt shit so I stopped .

So here we are all up to date. I have a few Thanks and pics to post so will get right on that !!

Bye darlings xxx