Red lips big hips

So , i guess i should do this again ?
At the moment I'm on holiday from Uni and waiting for the kids to break up too.

For the next week I'm officially a house wife - probably the worst in the world but hubs hasn't killed me yet ....................... YET .

So I've been away a while so i should catch you up really.
When i started HMCAEI - (catchy :-/) my focus was on the changes going on in my life i'd recently left therapy ,recently attempted a massive diet/lifestyle overhaul and starting a uni course I knew nothing about.
While still being functioning mum ,wife and human being - I mostly managed it most of the time i think !

so the first thing was the therapy. I went from having a weekly session to cold turkey. There has been times I'd thought about going back as I could feel myself struggling.
I made appointments but never actually went , never actually told anyone I was struggling again.
BUT  I made it though it.
I found with the depression gone that a lot of unhappy and unwanted memories came back.
Exposing the real reasons I'd been so doubtful and critical of myself all these years.

It wasn't me, it was them.

tHIS Was tHE ReVOLation

So the next thing was the diet thing. I managed to eat well enough to keep myself well over the uni year.
The urge to keep busy and to keep focus was mostly provided by spinach and water. Thou' 4 pm was (and forever will be ) chocolate time !

For the most this was ok but maybe a little unsustainable for me. I fancy pizza every now and then. I do feel fitter and healthier for eating more greens and less processed things.

I'd still choose takeaway if I've not prepared anything else.
So i'm not skinny   ----- I'm still talented and i'm still hard working and a great mum/wife ,snappy dresser  ? ;-)

So the Uni thing. I completed my first year and i PASSED ...

I knew nothing when I started , learnt everything from scratch and i did it.
It was exhausting and stressful day to day but the benefits of going outweigh it all

Even the nights I cried myself to sleep cos I had no idea what was going on !

So now I'm at the stage where I'm keen to work hard for what I want - I feel empowered and like something is building.

The last show i was involved with was amazing to be part of. I was give the freedom I needed to be the DIVA !
I was given a make over and had my very own photo shoot. I felt like looking at a different person.
There was a strong ,confident woman looking back at me i never knew was there.
I was given constructive feedback on performance technique  and encouraged to be fabulous !

So I did what they said and the result was Amazing ...............

It was a joy to work with them all and i'd do it all again in a heartbeat.

Big BIG thanks to Micheal and Anna. The Mannequins.

During the summer i'm going to try and develop my own lyrics and find a guitarist to help with my originals.

Sounds like a plan doesn't it ???????